Slackersauce

Went to Cross fit again today with Erin. We were supposed to start the day on this ab machine. I was actually happy bc its the one thing I have been able to do. So I jumped on and went back, on my way back I felt and heard a pop and a tear. My whole stomach was in pain. I got myself back up but had tears in my eyes. Ryan,  {the owner and trainer and rockstar}came over and said he heard it but wanted me to try again but not go back as far. I told him to stand behind me in case I can't do it and I basically fell into his arms and he had to pull me back up. So I got off the machine and sat down for awhile. When I felt good enough to walk around, I did and then got on the stationary bike which I call the long duck dong bike bc I felt like I was in 16 candles. The only thing missing was a neck brace. Part of the workout of the day was to run around the building twice so when Erin was to that part, I did that with her and then just got back on the bike while they all finished their workout. 
Anyway, Ryan asked me if I had any C sections. Which I have had three. He said that sometimes they will actually tear your ab muscles in performing the C sec. and that I could have just opened up an old wound. idk and he didn't know for sure either. He said he's actually never seen that happen to anyone else on that machine. So that made me feel  like even more of an idiot. I told him I'll start being the poster child of how NOT to do Cross Fit if he would like me to. Anyway, glad I was able to at least do some cardio. Be interesting to see how my lower abs feel tomorrow or later today. I didn't realize how weak and out of shape I was. I thought I would be able to do this and not be perfect, but at least be able. I'm ridiculous. Seriously. I watched Erin do the work out and I wanted to cry for her. It is so damn hard. They all say "oh you'll get stronger.." but serioulsy..I feel broken when I'm there. and now even moreso. Anyway, Get high

2.5 mile walk around Flat Iron. I guess I didn't write down here what's up. I thought I had. Anyway, after my Crossfit bad day last week, I ended up going to Insta Care bc I was really swollen. I started to wonder if I had a hernia. Anyway, no hernia but I did tear muscle and scar tissue, arteries, all of that good stuff from my previous C sections. So that's why the swelling. I was advised not to do any sit ups or core for 6 to 8 weeks. Not lift heavy things and basically treat it as a recovery from a C section. Only more minor. They told me I could run if I take it easy. However there is still swelling and quite a bit of bruising so I decided to walk instead today. Anyway, sucks. But whatever. Felt good to go walk up the hills at the park and sweat a bit. Get High

Thank you JD for reminding me that I haven't blogged in two weeks. Phew. That was close.
I ran/walked 3 miles. Mostly ran but I did walk a little. It was hard as H.E.double toothpicks. Lungs burning, heart pounding, skin itching, forehead sweating..you would think I was a 400 lb person that just got off the couch for the first time. I bug myself so bad that I keep doing this to myself. Anyway, was running up NC and their were firemen on the side of the road fixing a hydrant and some man and wife happened to be walking by them the same time I was running by them and I nodded the running nod. And I heard the lady say  "Thank you for everything you do!" all enthusiastic like to the firemen, and they smiled and acknowledged it. But for some reason It made me want to roll my eyes at her. And then I thought of Metro Man and I wanted the fireman to enthusiastically say to her, "YOU'RE WELCOME RANDOM CITIZEN!" And then I made myself laugh. Anyway, Get High.

I have no idea if I did one mile or more, or less. I ran the hills at the park before the baseball game. Heart pounding, lung burning hill running.