Slackersauce

Went to Cross fit again today with Erin. We were supposed to start the day on this ab machine. I was actually happy bc its the one thing I have been able to do. So I jumped on and went back, on my way back I felt and heard a pop and a tear. My whole stomach was in pain. I got myself back up but had tears in my eyes. Ryan,  {the owner and trainer and rockstar}came over and said he heard it but wanted me to try again but not go back as far. I told him to stand behind me in case I can't do it and I basically fell into his arms and he had to pull me back up. So I got off the machine and sat down for awhile. When I felt good enough to walk around, I did and then got on the stationary bike which I call the long duck dong bike bc I felt like I was in 16 candles. The only thing missing was a neck brace. Part of the workout of the day was to run around the building twice so when Erin was to that part, I did that with her and then just got back on the bike while they all finished their workout. 
Anyway, Ryan asked me if I had any C sections. Which I have had three. He said that sometimes they will actually tear your ab muscles in performing the C sec. and that I could have just opened up an old wound. idk and he didn't know for sure either. He said he's actually never seen that happen to anyone else on that machine. So that made me feel  like even more of an idiot. I told him I'll start being the poster child of how NOT to do Cross Fit if he would like me to. Anyway, glad I was able to at least do some cardio. Be interesting to see how my lower abs feel tomorrow or later today. I didn't realize how weak and out of shape I was. I thought I would be able to do this and not be perfect, but at least be able. I'm ridiculous. Seriously. I watched Erin do the work out and I wanted to cry for her. It is so damn hard. They all say "oh you'll get stronger.." but serioulsy..I feel broken when I'm there. and now even moreso. Anyway, Get high