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Tired this morning. Ran a slow two around the hood and then did sprints up NC with walking in between. Saw Jeff running down. Hi Jeff! Then turned around and ran down NC to home. I was standing at the light wishing school would get in and then I realized by wishing that, I'm only wishing for the marathon to get here. Suddenly my stomach dropped and I wanted time to stand still.

 Get High 

Got up at 5 and went by myself. Pretty uneventful except I saw two deer. One of them scared me bc I looked up and it was about 5 feet away from me. Just startled me. That's pretty much it. Get High

Waited at the light for Erin but she never showed so I left. On my way down NC, she was running up so I turned around and talked to her about her trip etc. and then ran back down with her. I'm alone with the boys this week. Scott's gone at scout camp and the girls are gone to girls camp. So its just me, the boys and football practice two hours a day 5 days a week. What has become of sports these days? I find it all ridiculous. Get High

two around hood, up Willow, around tower, down willow, around hood, home. 
Saw Stacie going up NC while I was going down. Saw Jeff going up Willow while I was going down. Didn't feel like running today. Glad its over. Get High

Today was not a Good day for me. I felt like I did the day I ran TOU. I was nervous to start with and by mile 6 I started to cry. Not bad, just emotional. I don't know why. Stacie and Erin were both encouraging and patient. I felt like I was bringing them down the entire time. I kept saying "just go ahead of me." I didn't want to let my negative wear off on them but I think it did anyway. I walked a lot. I kept getting emotional. We stopped at chevron at mile 13 and got refills and potty break. I posted on fb how bad I hate running. I told myself over and over again that I will not register for another marathon until my kids are more grown up and I feel less busy. I made Stacie promise not to let me.

When we got to the trail in draper and then finished on fort street, there was just hot beating sun. My calves began to cramp like in TOU. They were seizing but I just kept going. When I got to fort I decided to try and sprint/walk just to gt it over with. I had two more miles. It felt really good at first and I did pretty well with it for the first mile but started to fail with the last mile. My sprints turned into turtle crawls as I felt like I was barely moving.

Cameron picked us up and handed me a water bottle, a chocolate milk, and a big diet coke. I was so happy. Each one tasted amazing and I was so glad to be done.

I somehow need to get my confidence back. I need to get my running mojo back. Somehow I need to get high again. GET HIGH!!

5. GH

eight with Erin. GH

I actually felt decent today but my avg said otherwise. Kind of disappointing. I am running in the 11's as an avg and have been for over a month now. I don't know what's going on and I don't feel I have been this slow since I first started running. I'm annoyed bc I know my marathon is not going to be any better than my last one if this is what I'm doing. I really thought today was going to show a better avg bc for how I felt. Oh well. I'm trying to get to the bottom of this crap. I will figure it out and it will get better. I just hope & pray it does within the next 3 weeks. If it doesn't, than it is what it is and life moves on. I'm happy to say that I did get High today regardless of what the garmin said. And I've needed a good High for a long time. so GET HIGH!! 

99% better experience than last week. I've been telling my friends and family to pray for me all week. It worked. Seriously. I believe that. :) Ran down Milcreek, along Wasatch, down into Holladay and ended at my sisters. It was pitch black in the canyon when we started. Conversation in the car on the way up went as follows:

Me- Erin, were you with me when I was talking about Paranormal Activity when we ran this canyon before? Erin- Yes. Stop talking about it. Scott-Is that the one that the guy video tapes his wife?  Erin- Stop talking about it. Scott- Is that the one where she stands above him and watches him sleep for hours during the night? Me- yes. Its the one that freaked me out. Erin- STOP TALKING ABOUT IT! Scott- Why is there a car behind us? Its weird there's another car in the canyon at this hour. Me- Ya..I was thinking the same thing. Maybe they're runners. Not likely, but you never know. maybe bikers. Scott- Or psycho killers. Me- SCOTT! Erin- STOP IT! giggle giggle. So we got to the top and the car had disappeared. do do do do {twilight zone music} I went to the bathroom and Erin and I got out to run. Scott drove away. Suddenly it was pitch black. So we ran the first mile with our arms linked while giggling nervously about the psycho killer we knew was in the trees. Then it dawned on me I had my phone with me we could use for light. Didn't do much, but it gave us security. Anyway..it was pretty funny. Ran down the canyon and saw my friend from high school riding his bike up, chatted with him for a minute and continued on. Worst part of this run is going on Wasatch to the mouth of the canyon 7-11. Erin was way behind me all along here but I couldn't stop in fear that I would jinx something. Ran all the way to the Sev and bought a gatorade, sat on the bench and waited for her. I drank half that gatorade. I normally don't like that bc it makes my stomach sick. But today it was like magical drink. It gave me a burst of energy that I haven't felt in over a month! I ran the next 3 miles faster than I have been in a long time. I was actually in the 9:40's and 10's again. I couldn't believe it. I got to the top of Holladay blvd with 2 miles to go and waited for Erin again for a few minutes so she wouldn't get lost. She came up over the hill and she was crying so hard. I just hugged her bc I knew without anything even being said exactly how she felt. I called my sister and told her we may need a support vehicle. Erin felt like throwing up and was overcome with emotion. She stubbornly said to me "YOU have to get me through this..I'm not giving up. help me." So I talked to her about how running a marathon means so much more than just running a marathon. Gave her the best pep talk I could muster up and stayed at her pace to help her finish. When I announced ONE more mile, she started to cry again. I kept the talking going until we got to Gretchens house. She finished with an emotional breakdown and I knew exactly how she felt. I just kept saying "you did it..you are awesome." etc etc. and kept hugging her. Gretchen had smoothies chucked full of spinach, pomegranates, bananas, berries, almond milk etc waiting for us. They were awesome. My family is so supportive. I'm so grateful for this. Then my parents picked us up and took us home. 

I am soooooo happy this went well. I am soo grateful. I needed this to be good and it was. We finished almost 45 minutes faster than last weeks 20 and I finished feeling strong. I could have kept going and that's exactly what I needed. Finally..I got really HIGH!!! GET HIGH! 

Supposed to go 5 but I woke up with a headache. Then when I was out there my EPL came on and I had to run home. Felt good to go loosen up my sore muscles though. Pretty decent 3 I guess. Get High

I'm jealous of all speed walkers and bike riders.Their jobs look much easier. Get High

Had a dream that I was at a climbing gym with a buddy from high school and I was telling him that I didn't know if I could climb today bc I have sore throat and a stuffy nose. Then my alarm went off. My dream was true. I'm getting a cold. So Erin and I ran, it was good. We were supposed to do 14 but didn't. Didn't really care bc I felt done. It's all good. Nice morning, good conversation. Get High

Got up at 4:30. Ouch. Glad the kids will be gone today. Get High

It's too late in the year and too early in the morning to be this freaking HOT outside. I can't wait to get home and get my ice cold water. Found sprinklers where I could. Ready for fall temps and 9:00 am runs. Get High