Slackersauce

Felt good to be back. My alarm went off and I fell back asleep so I was running to not miss Stacie and my eyes weren't even all the way open when I got to her house. Took me a minute to wake up and my lungs hurt a little bit. That always happens to me when I haven't run even for four days. And since its been a whole week!! uggh. I cant believe that. I am praying I will be okay for the marathon. I'm starting to get my anxiety stomach already! I need to start having my mental talks with myself already and we still are 7 weeks away! Calm the eff down Lysa. Seriously. Anyway, good to be back, good to be running. Happy anxiety running.

Also did planks and weights when I got home.

The important thing is that I got the distance of 8.

Came home and did total body circuit weights for 15 minutes also.  My thoughts on today's run are this: Stacie has found a new speed within herself. One that I have yet to discover. I think it's great for her and I'm not mad by any means, I'm a bit frustrated with myself bc I don't understand why I cant feel as strong as It seems like everyone around me is! I think I will start bringing my music with me though bc she is getting ahead of me more often than not now. I'm not angry at her, and I surely don't want to hold her back. She does still push me and that is good. I just need to bring my daughter with me sometime so I can feel like the strong one. It would be good for me mentally to run with someone sometime that I can feel like I am the strong one. Does that make sense? Like I said, I'm not angry at her..I'm frustrated with myself. I have been saying "oh maybe I'm just having a bad day.." But those "bad" days are turning into more than just a few. I cant look at it like that. I just need to think that I'm having a good day and I'm doing the best I can. I need to stop comparing myself to anyone else. It's just hard to not do that when I see her so far ahead of me. I don't want to ever NOT run with her, like I said, it pushes me and I have to see this marathon through with Stacie. I ran my first mile with her. I just need an attitude adjustment and I need to incorporate more weights and nutrition. I'm already good with the nutrition, but I could always be better.

Cleaned the house and then did the 15 minute lower body weights and 15 minute upper body weights. {I really like this DVD Stacie}

A lot of  thinking and contemplating today. 

10.43 avg. 1440 calories burned.  After an alone day of thinking, contemplating, crying and praying over running and personal issues, I came out this morning refreshed and rejuvenated. It was nice to walk outside to a cool temp. and even better when it started to rain our first mile. Wish it lasted longer then it did but it was nice. I ran with Stacie and talked to her until mile 9.6 where we stopped to gu. She then told me she was going to push it so I put on my headphones, cranked up the volume to Disco ball World {David Garza} and it was me and the road. It was liberating to me to know that I didn't have to catch her or end with her that I could be okay with my own time and my own speed. We agreed that that is what is going to work best for us. Running is such a personal thing and I just needed to get over the fact that she is stronger than me and just be okay with where I'm at. Me against Me right? I'm so happy that I have the kind of friends that I do. I can't stand people who create drama everywhere they go. People like that are exhausting and  I have enough to think about. I guess that's why I have the friends I do, bc they are like me. They cant get hung up on all the little details. I'm not talking about running, I'm just saying in general. I'm just lucky, that's all I'm trying to say. Anyway, Happy Liberating Running! 

Went to swim laps at Alta Canyon this morning. I don't think I have ever swam laps in my entire life. I was completely idiotic at first and kept sinking. There was a girl there who is on a swim team, probably about 17 or 18 yrs. old and she gave me some tips. Once I followed her advice and practiced a bit, I felt like I was in a groove. It was a lot of fun, I really liked it. A nice and welcome change to running. It's interesting swimming laps bc you are so focused on what you are doing that you don't realize how hard you are breathing until you stop. I didn't think my heart rate was really that high until I would stop to get a drink or take a break. I really liked it. Not that I want to be a swimmer now or anything, but it is a nice change.